FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE

Feel like I'm stoned

wanna be alone, just for a while, unknown

Weeks on the road a long way from home

just shut off the phone

And you say I'll heal you,

I'll always be yours

and you say I'll kill you if I do something wrong

Still feels like the first time

to stand here by your side

together regardless

we'll walk through the darkness

Still fells like the first day of my life

Remember the times

together we swore to never give up this life

still hanging on, still going strong

here I belong

And maybe I'm crazy

but I just can't slow down

Yeah maybe I'm crazy

but at least I'm still around, yeah, yeah

IN THE SHADOWS

No sleep

No sleep until I'm done with finding the answer

Won't stop

Won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer

Sometimes I feel like going down, I'm so disconnected

Somehow I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life

They say that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe

But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave

Sometimes I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

Lately, I've been walking, walking in circles

Watching, waiting for something

Feel me, touch me, heal me

Come take me higher

STILL STANDING

I wish you were here tonight with me to see the northern lights

I wish you were here tonight with me

I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning

I wish I could have you by my side

cause I've been down and I've been crawling

won't back down no more

can't you stop the lies falling from the skies

down on me,I'm still standing

can't you roll the dice,I might be surprised

conscience clear I'm still standing here

burns like a thousand stars,though you're light years away

burns like a thousand stars or more

you're up there,you're always with me

smiling down on me

It's something sacred,something so beatiful

something quiet to ease my mind

when the pressure's taking me over and over

cause I've been down and I've been crawling

pushed around,always falling

you're up there,you're always with me

smiling down on me

IN MY LIFE

Feel the heat below my feet

I have to go no time to sleep

Can't believe the things you say

turn my head and walk away

You make me sick you make me nervous

Times are gone when you would say

This is the one and seize the day

Times are gone for honesty

"My victory is your defeat"

Oh can't you see you've been mistaken

In my life I decide, and it turns me on

How I am, how I live, who I love

In my way I feel strong, and it turns me on

In my life, I decide, I decide

All you do, you can't deny it,

It's waste of time, It's waste of life

Can I suggest that you invest

In something more than hopelessness Before you know, the ride is over

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up

It's up to you if you won't stop

The record shows that you're dead but you're still living

Every time you have died you have been given

another chance to fix your bad attitude

And make a move, it's up to you

TIME TO BURN

Fear of the dark tears me apart

Won't leave me alone and time keeps running out

Just one more life, i'm so sick and tired

of singing the blues, I should turn my life around

Tell me why do I feel this way

All my life i was standing on the borderline

Too many bridges burned, too many lies I've heard

I had a life but I can't go back, I can't do that,

It will never be the the same again

And i know i don't, have any time to burn

They follow me home, disturbing my sleep

But I'll find a place,

place where they cannot find me

Maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared

But too many times I've closed the doors behind me

Leave it all behind, cross the borderline Face the truth,

don't have any time to... Don't have any time to burn

GUILTY

I feel guilty

my words are empty

no signs to give you

I don't have the time for you

You say I'm heartless

and you say I don't care

I used to be there for you

and you've said i seem so dead, that I have changed

but so have you

Guilty, guilty I feel so

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel

I put a shield upon you

I didn't mean to hurt you

I would have only poisoned your mind

never meant to make you cry

you've been so toughtless

I can see right through you

you used to be there for me

so don't you leave say goodbye

cause you have changed but so have I

I never though that the time and the distance

between us made you so much colder

I'll carry the world on my shoulders

NOT LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS

No more blame I am destined to keep you sane

gotta rescue the flame

gotta rescue the flame in your heart

No more blood, I will be there for you my love

I will stand by your side

the world has forsaken my girl

I should have seen it would be this way

I should have known from the start what she's up to

when you've loved and you've lost someone

you know what it feels like to lose

She's fading away

away from th?s world

drifting like a feather

she's not like the other girls

she lives in the clouds

she talks to the birds

hopeless little one

she's not like the other girls I know

No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life

in her mind she's repeating the words

all the love you put out will return to you

THE ONE I LOVE

Haven't slept in a week

My bed has become my coffin

Cannot breath, cannot speak

My head's like a bomb, still waiting

Take my heart and take my soul

I don't need them anymore

The one I love

Is striking me down on my knees

Drowning me in my dreams

Over and over again

Dragging me under

Hypnotized by the night

silently rising beside me

Emptiness, nothingness

Is burning a hole inside me

Take my faith and take my pride

I don't need them anymore

This bed has become my chapel of stone

A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown

So take my life, I don't need it anymore

BACK IN THE PICTURE

There were times in my life I was down on my knees, now it's over

Deep inside of me I know

Simply put I've been stabbed in the back ever since I remember

Deep inside it hurt to let go

I'm back in the picture, back in the picture

I wonder what took so long, so long

Dedicate everything I create

To my friends I would die for

But you will always be the one

Memories that you can't overrun, memoties I could cry for

I thought I'd always be on the run

FUNERAL SONG

I dumped you again

I don't understand

It's happened before

Can't take it no more

These foolish games

Always end up in confusion

I'll take you back

Just to leave you once again

I died in my dreams

What's that supposed to mean?

Got lost in the fire

I died in my dreams

Reaching out for your hand

My fatal desire

I've failed you again

'Cause I let you stay

I used to pretend

That I felt ok

Just one big lie

Such a perfect illusion

I made you mine

Just to hurt you once again

EVERYTHING YOU SAY

Tired of being seen as a bird in a cage

Tired of being heard all I did last week

Obviously you want to be me ‘cause everytime

when I fall you’re the first to reveal me

Live for yourself instead

Do me a favour

Feed your empty head

You drive me close to the edge

Everything you say, you say to annoy me

Watching every move I make whenever I’m around

Everything you do, you do it to destroy me

Waiting for the darkest hour to put me down

Time is gradual, the surface is all you can see

And if I told you the truth you will not understand me

Feed your empty head

Do me a favour

Live for yourself instead

You drive me close to the edge

Everything you say, you say to annoy me

Watching every move I make whenever I’m around

Everything you do, you do it to destroy me

Waiting for the darkest hour to put me down

You drive me close to the edge

You drive me close to the edge